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Ramadan Day 9
Mar. 19th, 2024 10:34 pmWoof what a day. Haven't talked about this yet but Tuesdays are easily the hardest day of the week in this season of my life. I try to anticipate this by making Tuesdays a day to run errands because then I can't just become a couch lump, but even that felt largely unsuccessful today. I was feeling really tense and on edge already, compounded by some interpersonal tension that I'm struggling to figure out how to resolve, and then inevitably compounded by having to cook and grocery shop and be surrounded by food while fasting. Yikes. Very ready for today to be over, truly was counting the minutes until iftar not really so that I could eat, but so that I could be closer to bedtime and trying again tomorrow.
I'm not sure that anything could have made today a massive success, my errand running which is usually well-planned and efficient felt sporadic and splintered, I only got a few of my reasonable and doable-on-any-other-errand-day list done. It's also the first full errand day I've tried to run while fasting (I only did 1-2 small errands last week and the food related ones were less stressful than this week) and it was definitely a trial. Funnily, it's a little easier to notice when I'm actually upset about an interpersonal encounter while fasting, because I don't have to wonder if lack of food/sleep/etc. are what are actually upsetting me; I'm becoming familiar with my baseline irritability around eating and waking up on time to eat suhoor that when I surpass that level of AHHH, I can't just chalk it up to food/sleep.
Here's a cute smol sriracha that I bought today (I don't really keep sriracha in the house but wanted a small one for specific dishes, don't come for me I like other hot sauces better in most things)
I'm not sure that anything could have made today a massive success, my errand running which is usually well-planned and efficient felt sporadic and splintered, I only got a few of my reasonable and doable-on-any-other-errand-day list done. It's also the first full errand day I've tried to run while fasting (I only did 1-2 small errands last week and the food related ones were less stressful than this week) and it was definitely a trial. Funnily, it's a little easier to notice when I'm actually upset about an interpersonal encounter while fasting, because I don't have to wonder if lack of food/sleep/etc. are what are actually upsetting me; I'm becoming familiar with my baseline irritability around eating and waking up on time to eat suhoor that when I surpass that level of AHHH, I can't just chalk it up to food/sleep.
Here's a cute smol sriracha that I bought today (I don't really keep sriracha in the house but wanted a small one for specific dishes, don't come for me I like other hot sauces better in most things)
