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Ramadan Day 7
Mar. 17th, 2024 10:08 pmToday was surprisingly challenging. I felt like I couldn't keep my mind on much of anything I was doing, despite being busy, without remembering I was hungry. I typed up my transcripts and felt hungry, tended to my garden and felt hungry, read my book at felt hungry. It really gnawed at me today. Which to some extent, is the point for me here, to build my understanding through minute experiences.
I also spent the afternoon doing work with a friend and thought I would be ok doing that because they had planned to eat lunch before my arrival, but didn't and ended up eating when I arrived and had also forgotten I was fasting. It made me feel sad and alone in my practice, which I am objectively not (gestures at the entire world). I can imagine how quickly this can get isolating, especially for Muslims living away from family and community. Which also made me realize I wish I was talking to more people in my family about what I'm doing and keeping it to myself out of fear of shaming and being misunderstood.
My spotify playlist was a little cute today and made me want to play dnd instead of type transcripts.
I also spent the afternoon doing work with a friend and thought I would be ok doing that because they had planned to eat lunch before my arrival, but didn't and ended up eating when I arrived and had also forgotten I was fasting. It made me feel sad and alone in my practice, which I am objectively not (gestures at the entire world). I can imagine how quickly this can get isolating, especially for Muslims living away from family and community. Which also made me realize I wish I was talking to more people in my family about what I'm doing and keeping it to myself out of fear of shaming and being misunderstood.
My spotify playlist was a little cute today and made me want to play dnd instead of type transcripts.
